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So I went to the shrink, and I am not depressed.

Yet.

No, but seriously, he said I have mild symptoms that may or may not develop into depression. I’m sharing this with you, internet world, becuase you have absolutely no idea who I am.

Ahh, the safety of anonimity.

Even if you did know who I am, this is fact, so whatever. So, I got sleeping pills of some natural substance the brian makes to fix my fucked up sleeping patterns. That’s it, I have another date with the doctor in like a week, and we’ll see where it goes from there.

Also, my parents have changed around me, in result, I changed too. It’s not abad change, it was just weird. My parents are now giving more liberties and permissions and stuff. I think they didn’t expect their model kid to turn out depressed, or even close to that. So I believe this is an attempt to make me happy, so that it doesn’t develop into depression. Do not judge me, since that is my belief, I am trying very hard to not take advantage of it. No extra benefits being asked, I promise.

So now I am waiting. My parents are waiting too, but mostly me. I am waiting to see what happens, and I am ready to you know, face whatever does happen. So, whether I’m depressed or not, wish me luck. This is a tough world we live in.

Depressed? Yes, no, maybe.

Finally talked to my mother about my depression thoughts. I think I may be depressed but I’m not completely sure,however I still want to talk to someone, a professional, to get help. I didn’t give her all the details or all the reasons, mainly because she and my dad are a big part of the bad things, but I did come clean at least. I feel I’m on the right track.

Whether I have depression or not, I am getting my confirmation. Mom asked me if I would rather wait or talk to someone soon, I went with soon.

If I am depressed, I’m glad I’m getting help. For everyone out there, if you even think you could be depressed. Talk to a professional, make that call, before it develops into something more serious. If its not depression, you haven’t lost anything.

Let’s Be Positive

Hi.

My blog is extremely negative haha

In an attemp to bring goodness and happiness to this blog, I shall focus on the good things! Yesterdays list was the things that made me sad. Today we’ll go the other way. I’ll even put pictures in an attempt to bring color and therefore joy.

Music- Makes me happy, most of the time at least.

Let’s Get Specific:

My Chemical Romance and The Ready Set make me smile, anything from them. A video a song, an interview. I smile

My friends make me pretty happy too. At least the good ones.

Weekends make me happy.

Water puts a smile on my face. I mean this as in, if I get a big water  bottle, cold, I am content

Sleeping and eating are two of my favorite things in the world.

A good book = :D

A good movie is good too.

My family, mostly my brothers and my uncle (who’s like a brother to me, due to the very small age difference).

Painting makes me happy, I enjoy it. However, when I get pushed to do something, I get frustrated.

Well then, I think that sums most of my happy things. I bet there’s more, but I feel like typing other stuff. More Posts on random crap coming up!

Be happy people, don’t be like yours truly, who’s been sad lately.

SMILE.

Crap That Makes Me Sad

If we start looking at all the bad things in the world, we would never end. this is also true for the good things of the world, but right now, I am in a crappy mood. So I want to focus on the crap side of the world.

For me, sadness and anger usually go hand in hand, so most things that make me sad, make me angry.

When my parents pretend to know me.

When I am judged.

When people jump to conclusions.

When they don’t listen.

When I am not taken seriously on serious matters.

When I am sad, and I get scolded for it.

When I try my best, but it isn’t enough.

When I don’t see a certain person.

When my friends aren’t there for me.

This is the pretty general things, other bad situations branch out of this. When I have to lie, when I get bad grades, When my opinions aren’t repected, When I hear really stupid things.

Me being sad results mostly in me crying. Never bottle up your tears, because most of the time, crying and feeling horrible for a minute, will help you feel better for an hour.

Sadness

Sometimes, you get sad. It doesnt matter how the rest of your week was, how the beggining and middle of your day was. One thing. One action. One word, or lack of words can completely change that.