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“Do you wanna play with my Poke Balls?”

I apologize for opening with what you may find rude or insulting. When I read that supposed pick up line (Pokemon reference) I cracked up.

I was looking for a funny post, so I searched Funny. All this crap (no offense) about things being funny but not really, or why we thought this was funny bla bla bla appeared. Not one single post that made me laugh! Not one!

If I search “funny” I want laughs, not psychological talk. You, person who searched “funny” and read this, probably wanted the same. Thats why to make up for the rant, I put that hilarious pick up line. For the record, I really DO find it funny, but I laugh with almost anything.

“Is your dad a terrorist? Because your the bomb!”



Christmas Transition

This Christmas I noticed something. My younger brothers were getting presents from our family friends, but I was being excluded.

I know, Christmas is about giving and Jesus being born. But hey, I am a teenager and I want presents! I am not asking for anything fancy but even a card acknowledging that I am a part of the family you are gifting would be nice (if you wish to include money inside said card, no one is stopping you.)

Last year, I got presents. so maybe it’s that now they think that I’m too old or something. Well let me ask you something Mr. Family Friend. Do you like presents on your birthday? How old are you? Oh, 45 you say?

I thought so.

So, I am sorry if I sound super selfish and materialistic. Really I feel left out of the holiday cheer. And maybe you know, I like presents as much as my 8 year old brother.

Now hold your judgmental thoughts and ideas! Because I am willing to bet my non-existent gift, that you love presents as much as I do. You know I’m right

Radiate Happiness

Today someone told me I “Radiate Happiness”.


Have you read this blog? If you haven’t go read one of my posts.They are the most depressing shit ever! (ok not ever, but they are pretty depressing.)

Its nice to know that hey! maybe I have hope.

I am aware that I am not the most beautiful girl out there, but If I can “radiate happiness” and maybe you know, make some people happy, even if its for a little bit, I’m happy. This is propbably the most wonderful compliment I have ever recieved, people have called be pretty and beautiful. But this one took the cake.


I hope you know my happiness after hearing this translates a little into this post. I’ll try to radiate happiness more than sadness, we should all try. Be happy everyone:) Right now, I am.


So I went to the shrink, and I am not depressed.


No, but seriously, he said I have mild symptoms that may or may not develop into depression. I’m sharing this with you, internet world, becuase you have absolutely no idea who I am.

Ahh, the safety of anonimity.

Even if you did know who I am, this is fact, so whatever. So, I got sleeping pills of some natural substance the brian makes to fix my fucked up sleeping patterns. That’s it, I have another date with the doctor in like a week, and we’ll see where it goes from there.

Also, my parents have changed around me, in result, I changed too. It’s not abad change, it was just weird. My parents are now giving more liberties and permissions and stuff. I think they didn’t expect their model kid to turn out depressed, or even close to that. So I believe this is an attempt to make me happy, so that it doesn’t develop into depression. Do not judge me, since that is my belief, I am trying very hard to not take advantage of it. No extra benefits being asked, I promise.

So now I am waiting. My parents are waiting too, but mostly me. I am waiting to see what happens, and I am ready to you know, face whatever does happen. So, whether I’m depressed or not, wish me luck. This is a tough world we live in.

Depressed? Yes, no, maybe.

Finally talked to my mother about my depression thoughts. I think I may be depressed but I’m not completely sure,however I still want to talk to someone, a professional, to get help. I didn’t give her all the details or all the reasons, mainly because she and my dad are a big part of the bad things, but I did come clean at least. I feel I’m on the right track.

Whether I have depression or not, I am getting my confirmation. Mom asked me if I would rather wait or talk to someone soon, I went with soon.

If I am depressed, I’m glad I’m getting help. For everyone out there, if you even think you could be depressed. Talk to a professional, make that call, before it develops into something more serious. If its not depression, you haven’t lost anything.

My Tweets: Thoughts on Twitter

I see lots and lots of posts about Facebook, and none about twitter! I’m sure they’re out there but I don’t see them.

I have mixed feelings about twitter. In an attempt to sort them out, while making a post, I have decided to do the Pros and Cons list.


1. I can see what celebrities think! – This may seem extremely superficial. And most celebrities just remind you to “Watch my video!” or “I’m on I-tunes!”. However, I don’t follow most of those celebrities. Maybe the people I follow can’t even be called celebrities. Some of the people I follow, are extremely witty. Their tweets make me laugh. Also, the fact that I can see what this super cool person I want to meet is thinking, is just freaking awesome.

2. No judgement for updating your status! – One of the best things of Facebook is the status update. However, on Facebook, when you update your status to much, you get annoying. Twitter is like status central, no one cares if you tweet to much (OK thats a lie, but no one cares that they care!). Update all you want!

3. The lingo is cute – This is a sucky reason, but I love saying “Tweet” or “Twitpic”


1. I feel stupid when I tweet- Because I am not a celebrity, I don’t have a zillion replies. So Tweeting is pretty much like talking to yourself. Cool? Yeah? No.

2. It gets boring– After you read all the tweets, what else is there to do? Sit around and wait for more tweets? Yeah, I don’t think so.

3. That stupid whale – That whale when twitter is to full. It’s so damn cute, yet you hate it.

4. The Trending Topics – Oh my god, the trending topics of twitter are horrible. They are without a doubt the dumbest things ever. I hate Justin Bieber, and lets just say the “beliebers” apparently have great power over the trending topics. Which makes me hate them even more. No one cares if it’s #mytimenow, or if #aliensatetheworld.

So those are my thoughts on twitter. I should go and capitalize Twitter, but I am sleepy so I’ll skip that. Even though there are more Cons than Pros, I’ll probably still check twitter alot, mostly becuase I get bored, and even though Twitter is not SUPER FUN it can be entertaining for a bit.

With that I leave you. Remember to go follow me! (Just Kidding)

Let’s Be Positive


My blog is extremely negative haha

In an attemp to bring goodness and happiness to this blog, I shall focus on the good things! Yesterdays list was the things that made me sad. Today we’ll go the other way. I’ll even put pictures in an attempt to bring color and therefore joy.

Music- Makes me happy, most of the time at least.

Let’s Get Specific:

My Chemical Romance and The Ready Set make me smile, anything from them. A video a song, an interview. I smile

My friends make me pretty happy too. At least the good ones.

Weekends make me happy.

Water puts a smile on my face. I mean this as in, if I get a big water  bottle, cold, I am content

Sleeping and eating are two of my favorite things in the world.

A good book = :D

A good movie is good too.

My family, mostly my brothers and my uncle (who’s like a brother to me, due to the very small age difference).

Painting makes me happy, I enjoy it. However, when I get pushed to do something, I get frustrated.

Well then, I think that sums most of my happy things. I bet there’s more, but I feel like typing other stuff. More Posts on random crap coming up!

Be happy people, don’t be like yours truly, who’s been sad lately.